Locktober Reflection #5
What’s something I find hot about being locked? Good question. I actually had to think about that for a moment today. Because even though I’ve now been wearing a cage and staying locked for 600 days, I still of course have sexual urges and desires. Chastity simply changes how I experience my sexuality and arousal – different in its expression, and yes, differently spread throughout my body.
My locked bestie Sebastian summed it up perfectly last night when he said, “Since we take the cock out of the equation, we’re automatically forced to find other ways of seeking and finding satisfaction.”
I couldn’t agree more. My whole body has never been as sensitive and receptive during sexual or intimate encounters as it is now that I wear my cage 24/7. I’ve felt this especially during two Shibari sessions, where I was tied up and brought to orgasm in that helpless position – with hardly any direct physical stimulation – and it happened again each time I was bound.
Each time, I felt how open and responsive my body became in those moments. I could feel every breath of air, every gentle touch, every brush of skin, every subtle sensation. Sometimes my eyes were covered, so I couldn’t even tell where exactly the feelings in my body were coming from. I literally lost orientation – but that loss itself felt incredibly arousing and seductive.
What happened next, though, when I was brought to orgasm – with very little effort – surpassed anything I’d ever experienced before. During that bondage, I was hanging upside down, feet tied above me, my body twisted slightly. Even though I wasn’t blindfolded this time and could technically see everything, the visual aspect didn’t matter. In fact, I often closed my eyes just to stay deeper within my body, in the pure sensation and experience of it all.
Although I hadn’t planned on it – and my rigger wasn’t stimulating me all that much – I suddenly felt myself heating up more and more. I had already had an unplanned orgasm during an earlier tie that same day, which had been a bit embarrassing for me, so I didn’t expect to have another one. But my body clearly had other plans. I gave in to the feeling, the heat, the throbbing, the arousal. I felt a gentle pulsation growing stronger – in my shoulders, my thighs, my hips. Combined with the pain that comes with being tightly bound, it created an unbelievably intense sensation. The throbbing quickened, became stronger, my breathing faster, more desperate. Hanging there, I couldn’t do anything else but surrender to the game my body was playing with me.
My rigger had warned me this tie would be both physically and emotionally intense – but I still hadn’t expected this kind of emotional overwhelm. And then suddenly, it didn’t take much longer, I felt my semen forcefully pushing its way out of me, pulsing out in several strong bursts.
Never in my life have I felt or experienced an orgasm as intensely as in that moment. The sensation is still hard to describe even today. It was as if the orgasm took full possession of my body, spreading everywhere, filling every part of me. The feelings were so overwhelming that I couldn’t help but scream out from the depth of my chest – almost like an animal. I realized I needed that release to somehow handle all the emotions rushing through me – emotions I had truly never experienced so intensely before.
To this day, I often think back to that incredibly hot, intimate, and vulnerable moment. It really was a turning point in my life and opened something inside me I hadn’t even believed possible. Because it didn’t just let me fully surrender to the moment – it also allowed me to completely trust my body and its intelligence. And I owe much of that to chastity itself, which helps me savor every moment physically and sensually to the fullest.
And that’s exactly what I find hot about being locked.